I do not think that the classic notions of the AT are sufficient to explain it's benefits.
The AT help students to improve the use of themselves. AT does not claim to help with pain - or any particular benefit. However, both scientific and anecdotal evidence suggests that students can expect less pain. But how is this? Why might they expect less pain?
I have suggested that AT teachers no longer use the word "pain". The word suggests that a bodily sensation can be separated from the rest (emotions, intellect, etc) of the person. Alexander was very clear that this can not be done. I have suggested that the state of extreme negative physical sensation + emotional distress + tortured thoughts should be called "suffering".
I believe that in addition to claims that AT student will have better use, that it is reasonable, based on science and anecdotal evidence, that the AT can help prevent 'suffering'.
How is this?
The AT teacher is trained to notice how people use their bodies, both with their hands and visually. When a student reports less suffering, and the teacher notices better use of their body, the AT teacher might jump to the conclusion that better use is the cause of less pain/suffering. Of course, it makes sense that better use would lead to less unnecessary tension, improved sensory appreciation, greater efficency, and new tools to organize oneself in order to abandon old patterns and learn new skills. So the case that the AT helps with 'suffering' by way of improved physical use really sounds compelling.
Yes, better use and less pain/'suffering' occur together. But correlation does not prove causality.
I propose that the AT helps with suffering by blocking the progression from stimulous to suffering.
As I have writting in my previous posts, specific steps need to be followed to get from sensation to suffering. These steps might be sensation, separation, aversion and then suffering.
I have claimed in my previous posts that the persistent and energetic direction of the primary control will block this process. Sensation, regardless of how sudden and severe, will not develop into suffering if one has sufficent direction. I have said this is a huge contribution that FM Alexander has given anyone who wishes to suffer less when confronting difficulties.
Zen Buddhists, who stress ending suffering, should take particular attention. Zen teaches the pracice of 'inhibition of end-gaining' or 'stopping' as the means to end suffering. This is fully supported by AT. But I am suggesting another pathway - which anyone can learn to employ.
What evidence do I have for the claim that AT students have less suffering primarily through blocking the development of suffering through direction as opposed to having less pain as the result of better physical use? The scientific evidence is very thin. But there is evidence to support my assertion.
Let us look at the best study on the AT and pain, the ATEAM study published in the British Medical Journal. The most sited primary outcome was an 86% reduction in days in pain compared with the control group. I imagine that most AT teachers would assume that this was due to improvement in physical use. The assumption is that those who learned the technique went about their lives reaching, bending, sitting, etc with greater ease and efficiency and as a result they had less pain.
With greater ease and efficiency there should come less disability. In the ATEAM study disability would seem a surrogate marker for improved use. One would assume about the same improvement in disability and with pain.
But this was not so. There was "only" a 42% reduction in Roland disability score. Still a huge benefit, but only about half of the benefit seen with days with pain: the pain benefit was double the improvement in disability.
This suggests a second mechanism of action that helps with pain. If better use/less disability accounted for only half the pain benifit, what other mechanism could be playing a role?
I propose that those who had studied the AT learned a valuable skill, and that is direction, specifically direction of the primary control. They still had some degree of sensation from their still somewhat disabled back. But with the tool of direction they prevented the sensation from progressing to suffering. Without suffering they reported less pain. And this pathway accounts for the other half of the pain reduction reported in the study.
I realize there are ways to criticise these statements and the evidence is thin.
However, based on the above, an AT teacher should consider telling prospective students that it is reasonable for them to expect less suffering through improving the use of themselves. AND, in addition, students will acquire tools to suffer less as life sends them the challenges that flesh is heir to. Students can acquire two highly effective pathways to maintain poise in the face of any noxious stimulous you might experience, and to prevent that stimulous from producing suffering.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Suffering.
There is a bit more that I wanted to say about sitting with pain. I kept my previous post simple to make a point that most of the pain we have is caused by how we use ourselves. I minimized the effects that the 'conditions of use' have on pain. Also, I want to write about how pain develops.
I feel my last post did not pay the respect I feel to those who have a lot of pain due to their 'condition'. I have known two luminary teachers at the San Francisco Zen Center who have had worse pain than I can possibly imagine. These teachers had really broken bodies due to repeated trauma or advanced disease like rheumatic arthritis. I hesitate to write on this topic at all out of respect for my betters.
I actually know very little about pain. But I do wonder if there is a natural process which people with really bad long term pain follow. Is there a process of experiencing pain, struggling against it, finding some balance between the benefits and pitfall of 'hope', finding some acceptance and openness to pain? Does this process remodel our beliefs around who we are? If so, the severe 'conditions of use' now has effected our 'manner of use'. Pain can be a very powerful remodeler of who we think we are.
I am a medical care provider, and I occasionally provide care to people with chronic pain. To provide care I listen carefully to their concerns, and communicate that I really care about them. I let them know that I want them to be free from pain. I do everything I can to find the cause of their pain and provide treatment. And I also do everything I can to provide symptomatic relief. That's the easy part. But I feel I must make an effort to add something more. I'm not there to be their friend. And it's not right to be overly solicitous. I must suggest to them that some of their pain is due to their 'manner of use' which is fundamentally based on beliefs. I might ask those with pain: "Can you let the pain be just pain?" "Can you leave yourself alone while you sit?" I strongly feel the the Alexander Technique could be very helpful here.
I'd like to change gears a bit. I would like to propose that there is a process that we habitually perform as sensation devolves into pain. We go step by step down this path. It is a progression from 'sensation' to 'suffering'. Most important, we do it. We have to take responsibility for the process. Very roughly:
Sensation: At a rather fundamental level there is this brain that is receiving electrical stimulation. This is stimulation to a specific area of the brain's body maps.
Separation: At some point there is a separation, there is separate 'me' that is feeling - a me that has a leg.
Aversion: I decide that I don't like the knee stimulation.
Suffering: I start to become more and more involved in the sensation and opinions about the sensation. This manifests as concurrent emotional upset, psychic involvement and shortening and contracting the body. This is not pain. The word "pain" infers that it is possible to have a big physical sensation that is separate from the emotional grief + wild tormented thinking + shortening and contracting of the body. These things are all wrapped up together and it is not possible to separate them. One never occurs without the others. The package is called suffering.
How long it takes to move from sensation to suffering can be reduced to a mathematical formulae. One of the variables is the speed with which the sensation is experienced. The other day I tripped and hurt my foot at a busy intersection. Because it was so sudden I spun around to scream obscenities at the offending curb. On the other extreme is the exquisitely detailed unfolding of suffering with knee pain while sitting. Another part of the equation is that suffering is inversely proportional to capacity. On the days when I feel good, have eaten well, have slept well and have done some zazen I have greater capacity and it takes longer for aversion and suffering take place. Capacity can be cultivated.
Regardless of where one is in this 4 step decent into suffering, we can interrupt it. Once interrupted we can move back up the process. To interrupt the process Zen suggests creatively engaging the process and 'just sit'. The AT student recommits to 'the inhibition of end-gaining'. Google teaches their employees to "stop". Although Zen is arguably the most nuanced expression of 'stopping', all these are equivalent. Getting good at 'stopping' can lead to impressive 'capacity'
I propose the AT has something unique to add. Something else besides 'stopping' to help alleviate suffering. This addition is important: it is the only reason I am writing this blog. AT has 'direction' to add. If one is employing direction one can prevent descending, step by step, into suffering. One can imunize oneself from the decent from sensation to suffering. One must pass through the gateway of primary control to suffer. Shortening and contracting of the body will not occur if continuous direction is provided to the primary control; big physical sensation will not prompt us to create emotional grief + wild tormented thinking.
Here is a statement - if one successfully and continually maintains conscious direction over the primary control one will not progress from sensation to suffering. If this is not exciting enough, consider that 'direction' is not a variable in the suffering equation. It is a condition. If 'direction' is present then suffering can not develop. Without direction, suffering is free to develop based on our equation above. This is because the primary control is gatekeeper of our response to stimuli. This should be huge news to the 376 million Buddhists because Buddhism is fundamentally about the end of suffering.
The Zen student has ample opportunities to investigate this. Sit cross legged without direction and see how long you can do it without suffering. Tomorrow, employ direction along with your Zen 'stopping' and see how long it takes for suffering to develop. (Oh, I forgot, you'll have to have some lessons in the AT to learn how to do this).
Thank you so much for bearing with me. Here is a story as a reward. Sorry, I don't know the details. But it was in medieval Japan. The setting is a remote mountain monastery which was about to be overrun by a samurai general and his troops. But this was a particularly brutal general. Fearing for their lives all the monks ran and hid in the bushes. All but one old monk. The next day the general burst into the meditation hall. Seeing the seated old monk he went over, drew his sword, held it with alarming intent, and said "Fool! Don't you know who I am? I could run my blade through you and not blink an eye!" The old monk replied: "General! Don't you know who I am? I could have your blade run through me and not bink an eye!"
Feel free to end the story as you wish: it's not important. What is important is that the monks Zen training has likely provided him with tremendous capacity to withstand sudden extreme sensation with poise and equanimity.
Slings and arrow, being that we are human, will find us all eventually. Hiding in bushes is not a reliable plan. Perhaps we have the time to mature slowly like and old monk. On the other hand, the General may already be at the gate. Are you feeling the poise and equanimity? Maybe thinking about learning more about 'direction'?
So you can check my math - go ahead and peer review me. But ultimately this is not an intelectual exercise. Consider studying the Alexander Technique.
I feel my last post did not pay the respect I feel to those who have a lot of pain due to their 'condition'. I have known two luminary teachers at the San Francisco Zen Center who have had worse pain than I can possibly imagine. These teachers had really broken bodies due to repeated trauma or advanced disease like rheumatic arthritis. I hesitate to write on this topic at all out of respect for my betters.
I actually know very little about pain. But I do wonder if there is a natural process which people with really bad long term pain follow. Is there a process of experiencing pain, struggling against it, finding some balance between the benefits and pitfall of 'hope', finding some acceptance and openness to pain? Does this process remodel our beliefs around who we are? If so, the severe 'conditions of use' now has effected our 'manner of use'. Pain can be a very powerful remodeler of who we think we are.
I am a medical care provider, and I occasionally provide care to people with chronic pain. To provide care I listen carefully to their concerns, and communicate that I really care about them. I let them know that I want them to be free from pain. I do everything I can to find the cause of their pain and provide treatment. And I also do everything I can to provide symptomatic relief. That's the easy part. But I feel I must make an effort to add something more. I'm not there to be their friend. And it's not right to be overly solicitous. I must suggest to them that some of their pain is due to their 'manner of use' which is fundamentally based on beliefs. I might ask those with pain: "Can you let the pain be just pain?" "Can you leave yourself alone while you sit?" I strongly feel the the Alexander Technique could be very helpful here.
I'd like to change gears a bit. I would like to propose that there is a process that we habitually perform as sensation devolves into pain. We go step by step down this path. It is a progression from 'sensation' to 'suffering'. Most important, we do it. We have to take responsibility for the process. Very roughly:
Sensation: At a rather fundamental level there is this brain that is receiving electrical stimulation. This is stimulation to a specific area of the brain's body maps.
Separation: At some point there is a separation, there is separate 'me' that is feeling - a me that has a leg.
Aversion: I decide that I don't like the knee stimulation.
Suffering: I start to become more and more involved in the sensation and opinions about the sensation. This manifests as concurrent emotional upset, psychic involvement and shortening and contracting the body. This is not pain. The word "pain" infers that it is possible to have a big physical sensation that is separate from the emotional grief + wild tormented thinking + shortening and contracting of the body. These things are all wrapped up together and it is not possible to separate them. One never occurs without the others. The package is called suffering.
How long it takes to move from sensation to suffering can be reduced to a mathematical formulae. One of the variables is the speed with which the sensation is experienced. The other day I tripped and hurt my foot at a busy intersection. Because it was so sudden I spun around to scream obscenities at the offending curb. On the other extreme is the exquisitely detailed unfolding of suffering with knee pain while sitting. Another part of the equation is that suffering is inversely proportional to capacity. On the days when I feel good, have eaten well, have slept well and have done some zazen I have greater capacity and it takes longer for aversion and suffering take place. Capacity can be cultivated.
Regardless of where one is in this 4 step decent into suffering, we can interrupt it. Once interrupted we can move back up the process. To interrupt the process Zen suggests creatively engaging the process and 'just sit'. The AT student recommits to 'the inhibition of end-gaining'. Google teaches their employees to "stop". Although Zen is arguably the most nuanced expression of 'stopping', all these are equivalent. Getting good at 'stopping' can lead to impressive 'capacity'
I propose the AT has something unique to add. Something else besides 'stopping' to help alleviate suffering. This addition is important: it is the only reason I am writing this blog. AT has 'direction' to add. If one is employing direction one can prevent descending, step by step, into suffering. One can imunize oneself from the decent from sensation to suffering. One must pass through the gateway of primary control to suffer. Shortening and contracting of the body will not occur if continuous direction is provided to the primary control; big physical sensation will not prompt us to create emotional grief + wild tormented thinking.
Here is a statement - if one successfully and continually maintains conscious direction over the primary control one will not progress from sensation to suffering. If this is not exciting enough, consider that 'direction' is not a variable in the suffering equation. It is a condition. If 'direction' is present then suffering can not develop. Without direction, suffering is free to develop based on our equation above. This is because the primary control is gatekeeper of our response to stimuli. This should be huge news to the 376 million Buddhists because Buddhism is fundamentally about the end of suffering.
The Zen student has ample opportunities to investigate this. Sit cross legged without direction and see how long you can do it without suffering. Tomorrow, employ direction along with your Zen 'stopping' and see how long it takes for suffering to develop. (Oh, I forgot, you'll have to have some lessons in the AT to learn how to do this).
Thank you so much for bearing with me. Here is a story as a reward. Sorry, I don't know the details. But it was in medieval Japan. The setting is a remote mountain monastery which was about to be overrun by a samurai general and his troops. But this was a particularly brutal general. Fearing for their lives all the monks ran and hid in the bushes. All but one old monk. The next day the general burst into the meditation hall. Seeing the seated old monk he went over, drew his sword, held it with alarming intent, and said "Fool! Don't you know who I am? I could run my blade through you and not blink an eye!" The old monk replied: "General! Don't you know who I am? I could have your blade run through me and not bink an eye!"
Feel free to end the story as you wish: it's not important. What is important is that the monks Zen training has likely provided him with tremendous capacity to withstand sudden extreme sensation with poise and equanimity.
Slings and arrow, being that we are human, will find us all eventually. Hiding in bushes is not a reliable plan. Perhaps we have the time to mature slowly like and old monk. On the other hand, the General may already be at the gate. Are you feeling the poise and equanimity? Maybe thinking about learning more about 'direction'?
So you can check my math - go ahead and peer review me. But ultimately this is not an intelectual exercise. Consider studying the Alexander Technique.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Sitting with Pain
Zen Buddhism is about the end of suffering. But meditation is physically painful for many people. Zen proponents are telling people who trust them to do meditation, but the sitting is painful. On the one hand Zen says it helps with suffering, and on the other people who sit zazen experience pain when sitting.
Sitting in pain is a problem in Zen practice that needs to be acknowledged. On it's face Zen proponents are on thin ice ethically. Many smart people can rationalize, and equivocate in an attempt to dismiss this contradiction. My concept of Buddhism, and Zen in particular is to simply and squarely face reality and simply say "I am fully responsible for this".
Does sitting cause pain? Or is it just that we finally settle down and, lacking distraction, see the underling pain in in our life? Is it actually just a physical manifestation of our emotional turmoil? Is pain different than suffering? Is pain with sitting some kind of hazing ritual? Is it an essential part of the maturation of a Zen student? Is the pain just a manifestation of our clinging and aversions? Or is there really no pain at all, just a label that we choose to slap on sensations that we decide we don't like?
I refuse to get involved. I tire quickly of intellectual gymnastics. Indeed, I am quite dull and prefer to rely on simple stories from my youth:
My first visit to Tassajara Zen Monastery was for 2 weeks in the middle of the summer as a guest student. It was hot. The next year I decided to stay the entire summer and got there just as the winter/spring practice period ended. I rode my Yamaha two stroke twin over the mountain bringing everything I thought I would need strapped on the back. "It's the summer." I told myself. "It will be hot and I won't really need much clothing." The next day, (actually the middle of the night), the wakeup bell went running by my bed. I got up, wrapped a hand-me-down black robe around my scrawny 6'4" 150lb frame and went off to the zendo. I fucking froze my ass off. After morning sitting I immediately went to the "Goodwill" for something - anything - warm to wear. I was not surprised to find another shivering guest student there with the same goal. What was surprising was that he had just put on a bright pink puffy one piece jump suit which made him look like a giant infant or freakish easter bunny. It looked profoundly undignified, incredibly hideous. Of course, I shared my thoughts with him. My fellow guest student turned to me, looked me dead in the eye and in two words, gave me a profound lesson. He said simply "Fuck Suffering".
One aim of the Yoga of Zen must be to help people sit with less pain. Those who recommend zazen should be well versed and recommend adjuvant practices that are likely to help people sit with less pain. It is a simple act of compassion for more senior students to be familiar with the causes of pain while sitting and to make sure everyone is offered every possible assistance.
So lets look for something that might help with the pain. But where should we look? Drugs are out. Tiger balm is smelly. We've all tried squirming constantly: not so fun. How about instead of sitting cross legged maybe try sitting on a seiza bench? Or maybe a chair? Sometimes using these allows people to sit in less pain. Why is this? I think the only explanation is: how you use yourself is important.
This may seem like a trivial statement but it actually says a lot: pain is not simply a physical manifestation of psychic issues. It also means we are not victims of circumstances: we can make changes to how we use ourselves that makes sitting less painful. Also, it means that sitting without pain may not be exclusively available only to those with years of experience.
But how do we know if a change will be helpful or not? In the meditation hall there are lots of cushions, pads and supports that can be used in countless variations and permutations. Do we have to experiment over a period of years? Is it hit a miss? Doesn't sound like much fun, huh? I did this for 30 years. For me, it wasn't the fun part of sitting...
It might be useful here to introduce two ideas: 'manner of use' and 'conditions of use'. Conditions of use refers to what your body is physically capable of doing. Your Average Joe (who just set aside the remote and is getting off the recliner to try zazen for the first time) has limited external rotation of the hip which will make sitting in full lotus, ah, difficult. That is the condition of use. 'Manner of Use' is much different. Ones 'manner of use' is defined by how a Zen student wants to use herself, what she thinks is possible, what her personality suggests, what her beliefs are, what feels right. She sits the way she does because that is who she thinks she is - plain and simple, not very considered.
Now, if our use contributes to the pain we feel, is the pain from the 'conditions of use' or the 'manner of use'? Raise your hands if you think it is the 'condition of use'. Just as I thought - you all believe it the 'conditions of use'. I thought so because if you google 'yoga' and 'zen' you get endless sites that claim the two complement each other wonderfully. Tassajara has many summer programs on yoga and zen taught by wonderful smart people. That's proof. Or listen to the Rolfers and chiropractors and massage practitioners who adjust your body manually - who change your 'conditions of use': your strength, flexibility and coordination. They will change your conditions and you will change how you sit and you will sit comfortably. Right?
If pain while sitting is caused by the 'condition of use' then changing your 'manner of use' will not help at all. Our Zen student can decide to change her manner of use but as she actually tries she will bump into the limits of what her conditions dictate is possible for her. Clearly, changing the manner of use should have little effect on pain while sitting if the 'conditions of use' are important.
I beg of my kind reader just a few moments to consider something different. Something so different that it has the potential to radically change how zazen is taught.
Let's take a step back and ask if there is are any professionals out there that can help us with our 'manner of use' - who might help us to use ourselves better? Alexander Technique teachers claim they can help us to do just this. And that is all they claim. It is the only educational technique that specifically claims to improve how we use ourselves - our 'manner of use'.
Might pain with sitting be no different than common (non malignant) back pain? Pain, for many of us, does not stop once we leave the meditation hall. In fact most of us are achy quite a bit of the time. The most common type of pain we have is back pain. Its the 6th most costly diagnosis in US managed care. There have been a fair number of scientific studies hoping to find some way to alleviate this pain. The science suggests that therapies such as massage, acupuncture, rest, exercise, and chiropractic care can be helpful in the short run, but have very little proven benefit in the long term: improving the 'conditions of use' have not been found to reliably help with back pain in the long term. Recently there was a very important study on back pain published in the British Medical Journal, one of the most respected medical journals in the world. It was impressive because of the quality, long term follow up and the magnitude of the outcome. You can read it here: http://www.bmj.com/content/337/bmj.a884.full The study is a high quality, prospective, randomized study involving 579 people with quite significant back pain. People were randomized to a exercise, massage or lessons in the Alexander Technique. Bottom line: those with lessons had a 84% reduction in days in pain compared with the control group. The control group reported three weeks in pain in the past month while the Alexander Technique group only had three days. And this follow up was done a full year later which suggests that the AT group were given tools that provided life long relief from back pain. Of course, this was only one study, but given the quality of the study and other studies - which uniformly find benefit with the AT - we can safely say that the AT helps with back pain. And it help by improving the 'manner of use' NOT the 'conditions of use'.
To sit with much less pain one only needs from 6 to 24 lessons in the Alexander Technique to improve the 'manner of use'. Trying to improve the 'condition of use' will only marginally help and there are other problems with these therapies and practices as well. Improvement in 'conditions of use' does not help much with sitting because the 'conditions of use' are not what is really limiting us.
All students and Zen teachers must understand the difference between the 'condition of use' and the 'manner of use'. Pain while sitting can not be substantively addressed by trying to change the 'condition of use'. Since the AT is the only technique to improve the 'manner of use' it should at least be recommended to all zen student who are troubled by pain while sitting. If we care about our Sangha we must talk about the problem of sitting with pain, consider it's causes, and recommend the AT which is proven to be effective.
Sitting in pain is a problem in Zen practice that needs to be acknowledged. On it's face Zen proponents are on thin ice ethically. Many smart people can rationalize, and equivocate in an attempt to dismiss this contradiction. My concept of Buddhism, and Zen in particular is to simply and squarely face reality and simply say "I am fully responsible for this".
Does sitting cause pain? Or is it just that we finally settle down and, lacking distraction, see the underling pain in in our life? Is it actually just a physical manifestation of our emotional turmoil? Is pain different than suffering? Is pain with sitting some kind of hazing ritual? Is it an essential part of the maturation of a Zen student? Is the pain just a manifestation of our clinging and aversions? Or is there really no pain at all, just a label that we choose to slap on sensations that we decide we don't like?
I refuse to get involved. I tire quickly of intellectual gymnastics. Indeed, I am quite dull and prefer to rely on simple stories from my youth:
My first visit to Tassajara Zen Monastery was for 2 weeks in the middle of the summer as a guest student. It was hot. The next year I decided to stay the entire summer and got there just as the winter/spring practice period ended. I rode my Yamaha two stroke twin over the mountain bringing everything I thought I would need strapped on the back. "It's the summer." I told myself. "It will be hot and I won't really need much clothing." The next day, (actually the middle of the night), the wakeup bell went running by my bed. I got up, wrapped a hand-me-down black robe around my scrawny 6'4" 150lb frame and went off to the zendo. I fucking froze my ass off. After morning sitting I immediately went to the "Goodwill" for something - anything - warm to wear. I was not surprised to find another shivering guest student there with the same goal. What was surprising was that he had just put on a bright pink puffy one piece jump suit which made him look like a giant infant or freakish easter bunny. It looked profoundly undignified, incredibly hideous. Of course, I shared my thoughts with him. My fellow guest student turned to me, looked me dead in the eye and in two words, gave me a profound lesson. He said simply "Fuck Suffering".
One aim of the Yoga of Zen must be to help people sit with less pain. Those who recommend zazen should be well versed and recommend adjuvant practices that are likely to help people sit with less pain. It is a simple act of compassion for more senior students to be familiar with the causes of pain while sitting and to make sure everyone is offered every possible assistance.
So lets look for something that might help with the pain. But where should we look? Drugs are out. Tiger balm is smelly. We've all tried squirming constantly: not so fun. How about instead of sitting cross legged maybe try sitting on a seiza bench? Or maybe a chair? Sometimes using these allows people to sit in less pain. Why is this? I think the only explanation is: how you use yourself is important.
This may seem like a trivial statement but it actually says a lot: pain is not simply a physical manifestation of psychic issues. It also means we are not victims of circumstances: we can make changes to how we use ourselves that makes sitting less painful. Also, it means that sitting without pain may not be exclusively available only to those with years of experience.
But how do we know if a change will be helpful or not? In the meditation hall there are lots of cushions, pads and supports that can be used in countless variations and permutations. Do we have to experiment over a period of years? Is it hit a miss? Doesn't sound like much fun, huh? I did this for 30 years. For me, it wasn't the fun part of sitting...
It might be useful here to introduce two ideas: 'manner of use' and 'conditions of use'. Conditions of use refers to what your body is physically capable of doing. Your Average Joe (who just set aside the remote and is getting off the recliner to try zazen for the first time) has limited external rotation of the hip which will make sitting in full lotus, ah, difficult. That is the condition of use. 'Manner of Use' is much different. Ones 'manner of use' is defined by how a Zen student wants to use herself, what she thinks is possible, what her personality suggests, what her beliefs are, what feels right. She sits the way she does because that is who she thinks she is - plain and simple, not very considered.
Now, if our use contributes to the pain we feel, is the pain from the 'conditions of use' or the 'manner of use'? Raise your hands if you think it is the 'condition of use'. Just as I thought - you all believe it the 'conditions of use'. I thought so because if you google 'yoga' and 'zen' you get endless sites that claim the two complement each other wonderfully. Tassajara has many summer programs on yoga and zen taught by wonderful smart people. That's proof. Or listen to the Rolfers and chiropractors and massage practitioners who adjust your body manually - who change your 'conditions of use': your strength, flexibility and coordination. They will change your conditions and you will change how you sit and you will sit comfortably. Right?
If pain while sitting is caused by the 'condition of use' then changing your 'manner of use' will not help at all. Our Zen student can decide to change her manner of use but as she actually tries she will bump into the limits of what her conditions dictate is possible for her. Clearly, changing the manner of use should have little effect on pain while sitting if the 'conditions of use' are important.
I beg of my kind reader just a few moments to consider something different. Something so different that it has the potential to radically change how zazen is taught.
Let's take a step back and ask if there is are any professionals out there that can help us with our 'manner of use' - who might help us to use ourselves better? Alexander Technique teachers claim they can help us to do just this. And that is all they claim. It is the only educational technique that specifically claims to improve how we use ourselves - our 'manner of use'.
Might pain with sitting be no different than common (non malignant) back pain? Pain, for many of us, does not stop once we leave the meditation hall. In fact most of us are achy quite a bit of the time. The most common type of pain we have is back pain. Its the 6th most costly diagnosis in US managed care. There have been a fair number of scientific studies hoping to find some way to alleviate this pain. The science suggests that therapies such as massage, acupuncture, rest, exercise, and chiropractic care can be helpful in the short run, but have very little proven benefit in the long term: improving the 'conditions of use' have not been found to reliably help with back pain in the long term. Recently there was a very important study on back pain published in the British Medical Journal, one of the most respected medical journals in the world. It was impressive because of the quality, long term follow up and the magnitude of the outcome. You can read it here: http://www.bmj.com/content/337/bmj.a884.full The study is a high quality, prospective, randomized study involving 579 people with quite significant back pain. People were randomized to a exercise, massage or lessons in the Alexander Technique. Bottom line: those with lessons had a 84% reduction in days in pain compared with the control group. The control group reported three weeks in pain in the past month while the Alexander Technique group only had three days. And this follow up was done a full year later which suggests that the AT group were given tools that provided life long relief from back pain. Of course, this was only one study, but given the quality of the study and other studies - which uniformly find benefit with the AT - we can safely say that the AT helps with back pain. And it help by improving the 'manner of use' NOT the 'conditions of use'.
To sit with much less pain one only needs from 6 to 24 lessons in the Alexander Technique to improve the 'manner of use'. Trying to improve the 'condition of use' will only marginally help and there are other problems with these therapies and practices as well. Improvement in 'conditions of use' does not help much with sitting because the 'conditions of use' are not what is really limiting us.
All students and Zen teachers must understand the difference between the 'condition of use' and the 'manner of use'. Pain while sitting can not be substantively addressed by trying to change the 'condition of use'. Since the AT is the only technique to improve the 'manner of use' it should at least be recommended to all zen student who are troubled by pain while sitting. If we care about our Sangha we must talk about the problem of sitting with pain, consider it's causes, and recommend the AT which is proven to be effective.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
More Success for Google
I read an article in the NYT Sunday business section. The article was about a popular class Google offers to some of it's employees. The class is to help the employees find some way to work in what the article repeatedly says is a stressful situation.
When I think of struggling US workers, my heart does not automatically go out to the privileged workers at Google. But I do feel I owe Google something because they enable me to offer my unfocused thoughts, without charge. So in exchange, I'm going to suggest some changes to their class so that they can all be even more successful.
The article says that this course is called "Search Inside Yourself" and was developed with the help of "nine experts in the use of mindfulness at work" including the former Zen monk Mark Lesser.
The NYT writes: "One tool the course teaches is S.B.N.R.R ... short for Stop, Breathe, Notice, Reflect and Respond." This is very exciting because it shows that cutting edge in-house education is getting closer to the wisdom of the AT and Zen. Here are my thoughts on S.B.N.R.R:
Stop. I'm in total agreement. Why stop? Because if we don't stop we can't put an end to obsessive end-gaining which interferes with accurately perceiving reality. Further, it's only when we stop that we can realize we have a choice in how we respond. That's why we need to stop. For how long? Better not be long! They've got deadlines! I recommend stopping long enough to end the end-gaining and prevent interference with the primary control. Stopping does not have to take time, it only means you have given up on end-gaining and stopped interfering with the primary control.
Breathe. No, sorry, not a good idea. You might be able to settle your nerves a bit - any smoker will tell you it helps to take a big breath - but it's the wrong choice for several reasons:
1. Weird breathing is a symptom and not the problem. The problem is the end-gaining and poor use, the breath is a small part.
2. You are fragmenting yourself into parts: the mind, body, emotions, spiritual lives, intellect, personality are not separate. It is all the Self. If you want to make improvements and find success, then you have to address the Self and how its brought to bear in any task. Your back pain is not a symptom of your stress: it is your stress. Your obsessive end-gaining is not different than your physical tension and breath holding.
3. Trying to change the breathing is "doing". And the poor Google employee is already being asked to do more than enough. Zen is not about doing either, and being successful is also not about doing. Being less stressed is not about doing. It is all about DOING LESS!
4. Who has time for long slow breathing? We have work to do!
Notice, Reflect. Sure, obviously important. But these spring naturally from the cessation of end-gaining and foregoing interfering with the primary control. There is no need to make any effort to notice and reflect. These spring up naturally right after we stop. The deeper we were involved with our end-gaining the more startling coming back to reality will be. There is no reason to dwell there. Save the navel gazing for your time off.
Respond. Whoa! Hold on there! You're almost ready to open-your-mouth-send-the-email-Buy-IBM but not quite. Consider, what got you into all that end-gaining to begin with? Your end-gaining is caused by ignorance of how to reach your goal and a lifetime of poor use of yourself. Once you have stopped, here is how to proceed. Simply wish, allow and direct your head to go forward and up, the torso to lengthen and widen, the knees to go forward and away to allow the ankles to release and the heals to drop. THIS IS NOT DOING: simply allow it to all happen. This is sending directions to allow you to stop misusing yourself.
OK! Now, while directing yourself: Off you go! Stop and direct throughout the day as needed.
Enjoy!
When I think of struggling US workers, my heart does not automatically go out to the privileged workers at Google. But I do feel I owe Google something because they enable me to offer my unfocused thoughts, without charge. So in exchange, I'm going to suggest some changes to their class so that they can all be even more successful.
The article says that this course is called "Search Inside Yourself" and was developed with the help of "nine experts in the use of mindfulness at work" including the former Zen monk Mark Lesser.
The NYT writes: "One tool the course teaches is S.B.N.R.R ... short for Stop, Breathe, Notice, Reflect and Respond." This is very exciting because it shows that cutting edge in-house education is getting closer to the wisdom of the AT and Zen. Here are my thoughts on S.B.N.R.R:
Stop. I'm in total agreement. Why stop? Because if we don't stop we can't put an end to obsessive end-gaining which interferes with accurately perceiving reality. Further, it's only when we stop that we can realize we have a choice in how we respond. That's why we need to stop. For how long? Better not be long! They've got deadlines! I recommend stopping long enough to end the end-gaining and prevent interference with the primary control. Stopping does not have to take time, it only means you have given up on end-gaining and stopped interfering with the primary control.
Breathe. No, sorry, not a good idea. You might be able to settle your nerves a bit - any smoker will tell you it helps to take a big breath - but it's the wrong choice for several reasons:
1. Weird breathing is a symptom and not the problem. The problem is the end-gaining and poor use, the breath is a small part.
2. You are fragmenting yourself into parts: the mind, body, emotions, spiritual lives, intellect, personality are not separate. It is all the Self. If you want to make improvements and find success, then you have to address the Self and how its brought to bear in any task. Your back pain is not a symptom of your stress: it is your stress. Your obsessive end-gaining is not different than your physical tension and breath holding.
3. Trying to change the breathing is "doing". And the poor Google employee is already being asked to do more than enough. Zen is not about doing either, and being successful is also not about doing. Being less stressed is not about doing. It is all about DOING LESS!
4. Who has time for long slow breathing? We have work to do!
Notice, Reflect. Sure, obviously important. But these spring naturally from the cessation of end-gaining and foregoing interfering with the primary control. There is no need to make any effort to notice and reflect. These spring up naturally right after we stop. The deeper we were involved with our end-gaining the more startling coming back to reality will be. There is no reason to dwell there. Save the navel gazing for your time off.
Respond. Whoa! Hold on there! You're almost ready to open-your-mouth-send-the-email-Buy-IBM but not quite. Consider, what got you into all that end-gaining to begin with? Your end-gaining is caused by ignorance of how to reach your goal and a lifetime of poor use of yourself. Once you have stopped, here is how to proceed. Simply wish, allow and direct your head to go forward and up, the torso to lengthen and widen, the knees to go forward and away to allow the ankles to release and the heals to drop. THIS IS NOT DOING: simply allow it to all happen. This is sending directions to allow you to stop misusing yourself.
OK! Now, while directing yourself: Off you go! Stop and direct throughout the day as needed.
Enjoy!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Zen Forms
Zen Forms are central to Zen practice. They are about how we practice with our body. I've heard it said that there is no practice outside the Forms. Given that the Forms are such an essential part of Zen Practice it is surprising there is very little written about it. In fact a google search yields just one or two lectures on the Forms.
This essay is about the pervasive ignorance about them. It's very, very sad that such a huge part of our practice is, at best unexamined and underutilized. This post is about how the Forms are commonly understood, what the Forms could be, and how the AT can inform the practicing of the Forms. I love the Zen Forms. It is heart breaking to see how poorly understood - how abused - they are.
The Forms are a vast heterogeneous group of suggestions describing everything from daily schedules to the knots uses in our robes. From how to hold your eating bowls to how to walk during breaks. How loud to speak to how to cut vegetables. They can be ancient like what kind of knots to make in ones robe or more modern like silencing your cell phone during sitting. Some are for monastic settings and some are for community centers. Some have real impact of the quality of practice, like how to hold the hands during zazen and some seem quite arbitrary like what foot to use crossing a threshold. They are an odd collection.
You can use the Forms to do quite a bit. For example:
It can make you feel like a good Zen student once you think you have mastered them.
It can make you feel like a crummy student if you fail, repeatedly.
It can make you feel like one of the cool people in the Sangha, as opposed to those who are clueless, inconsiderate, and lacking in commitment as demonstrated by their non adherence to the Form.
Success in the Forms can elevate you the Repository of the Treasured Heart of The Practice (OK, I made that up).
It can be your job. Or your role in the world.
We can be use Forms to communication our shortcoming: the gap between our intention (following the Forms) and what we are actually doing revels quite a bit about ourselves to our teachers and fellow students.
They help us be less self concerned: 'Get up with the wakeup bell' helps us be less concerned with what we want or don't want.
They make us feel part of a group: we are supporting the group by employing the Forms and the group is supporting us.
You and your community can embody beauty through the practice of the Forms. 'Beauty' is a perceived quality that resonate with your fundamental perfection.
Zen forms are what you want them to be. So, what do you want out of your Sangha, your practice and the Forms? Is Zen your job and practicing the Forms your occupation? Is it an identity for you? A way to define "we" and "them"? A litmus test to tell who is part of your sangha and who is not? Are they something to get better at, something step by step to master? Is it an opportunity for you to teach those who are ignorant? Do you want the Forms to bring some order to your chaotic personal life? An anchor of meaning in an uncaring universe? Do you want them to be a convenience so that we don't have to think about how to do something? Are the Forms something that need cherishing and protecting? A religious icon? Are they here to help create a religious institution? In a monastic community, are they a way to communicate with each other: A way to let everyone know, "I'm doing well today" or "Today I'm a bit off, I'm not doing well". Whew, have I just scratch the surface?
Is there a fundamental use of the forms? Some people think that forms are here to extend our awareness. But I think this is a superficial understanding. Sure if we spend long hours trying to count our breaths we will need some antidote to this navel gazing. But I reject the notion that some antidote is needed to the practice of shikantaza. Do we really need to be 'aware' 10 times a day or 10,000 times a day. Is that really what Zen practice is about? Hey! The world is full of suffering!!! Maybe I'm too practical or maybe I'm stupid, or maybe I'm both, but I do not think that Zen practice is about being more 'aware'.
I beg you to consider Zen using the Forms as something else.
In you heart of hearts, what do you want out of your Zen practice? It's worth considering, because once you know what you want then you can use the Forms to further your goal.
And out of respect for our founders, what did the Ancestors want out us? In their heart of hearts, in one word, what do they that want for you and me?
Oh no. I seems I've written myself into a dark personal corner, and I'm sure none of you want to be here with me...
Ok, lets start over and try to be more practical. As long as I'm alive, I'll be doing stuff. Once I'm dead I won't be doing anything. This insight is from the Zen teacher Norman Fisher. Pretty basic, but I think it's important. And the stuff I do involves moving. Living things are alway moving, even while appearing nearly still. Dead thing are still. Living things can look pretty still, but actually they are always moving and doing something. But lets look at how I do this something. For me, the next thing I do might be done out of habit, not at all considered, done while half awake and preoccupied with what I want or where I want to be. But it does not have to be this way. I do not want it to be this way for me or for you either.
Thank goodness we actually have a choice in what to do in the next moment. But to have an alternative to this habitual, preoccupied, half awake way of acting we must have some commitment to act in a different way. We have to care about how we do this thing. Zen Forms are commitments, nothing more or less. Because there are lots and lots of 'doing' in our life, we need lots and lots of commitments or Forms. But it's OK to start out with one or two.
Might Zen Forms have any features?
One feature is Zen is that there are no limits. None of the many aspects of Zen have limits. Is our sitting limited to standing or lying down? Or take the vows: is the vow to save all beings just limited to your friends? Or just to those you think deserved to be saved? Or just humans? Or just those living now? Or all beings in the 10 directions? What about you toothbrush? Can you save your toothbrush?
How about the precepts? Where are the limits? Take "Do Not Kill". 'Not killing' is not limited to Not Killing you neighbor, or animals, or plants. It's not even limited to not killing thoughts or desires or aversions.
So what is special about the forms? Why should we assume there are limits to the forms? If we save a little old lady from getting run over, or if we manage to not killer the mo fo who cut us off in traffic, can we says that we have mastered 'saving' and 'not killing'?
Are we ever done with them? Do we graduate? Do we get a sabbatical from 'not killing'. Is there annual leave, spare time, retire at 65? Of course not.
So why should there be any limits to "Walk quietly"? What is your commitment to "walking quietly". Does it mean "quiet enough so that when I walk in the zendo I don't wake up my betters?" Or is it limited to throwing our whole self into each moment of walking so as not disturb one molecule of air? Is walking quietly limited to walking or does "walking quietly" mean not disturbing even one molecule of air even with not waking? Once you can do that, can you go beyond walking quietly and not walking quietly? Have you ever seen an old Zen student wildly abandon a form? It is a bizarre shocking event. Is that freedom?
Another feature of Zen is that its practice is not a step by step process. It's to be done fully, by each of us,, without reserve in this present moment. Sure, when you just start out with "walking quietly" your walking will sound different than one who has devoted most of her life to "walking quietly". But that does not mean her practice is better than yours. In fact, she might be day dreaming while walking. You can train a monkey to walk quietly. Does the monkey have good practice? Of course not, he's a monkey! If you want to improve "walking quietly" you improve by clarifying your intention and practicing persistently. Getting better at "walking quietly" has nothing at all to do with walking quietly! Zen forms is not a commitment to do anything! There are no mistakes in the practice of the Forms!
Finally, I want to propose that the reason we make the commitment is to be free. Have you made a commitment to 'walk quietly' to walk quietly? Well, what do you want out of your practice? For me, the Forms is a commitment to find some space. Once space is created we then have the possibility to act in a way we choose.
So the Forms are about a commitment. And the Forms are without limits like everything else in Zen. A limitless commitment. A limitless commitment that we fully and continually throw ourselves into without concern for improvement in order to create some space were we can act according to our deepest intention.
Lets take it apart into it's pieces. First I adopt the Form "walking quietly" as my intention. What I notice very quickly is how oblivious I am regrading how much sound I make when I walk. I am unconscious when I walk: I use myself out of habit. Over time I start to notice the stimulus to walk. Then, sometimes, I can stop my self from acting on the stimulus. I stop. I remind myself about my commitment to walk quietly. I can then then proceed with my commitment to walk quietly, or do something else, like nap. But it does not stop there. One must be on continual lookout for the stimulus to walk. At any moment our universe might send us sensations that prompt a stimulus or desire to walk. It's trick like that.
The Zen student have the benefit of a whole lot to individual forms they can adopt. And they have shikantaza to loosen our grasp of habitual responses and nurture a framework for continuos limitless commitment. It's sad, however, that they have few tools to maintain a continuous commitment.
This is where the AT comes in. It can give the Zen student concrete tools to help maintain their commitment moment after moment. The AT can help stop the neurotic preoccupation with getting getting ahead of ourself. It is sad that the AT has only one form and have no community for support.
Zen Forms are prompts to inhibit and direct. If we practice the Forms then we can begin to stop and see the moment for what it actually is, and then act based on our fundamental intention instead of out of habit. Our Zen ancestors did not know about the Alexander technique. But they gave us the gift of the Zen Forms which shows they did have some understanding of the power of inhibition and direction.
I'm writing this to urge you, as a Zen student, to study both the real meaning of the Forms, and to consider studying the Alexander Technique.
I welcome your criticism, thank you very much.
This essay is about the pervasive ignorance about them. It's very, very sad that such a huge part of our practice is, at best unexamined and underutilized. This post is about how the Forms are commonly understood, what the Forms could be, and how the AT can inform the practicing of the Forms. I love the Zen Forms. It is heart breaking to see how poorly understood - how abused - they are.
The Forms are a vast heterogeneous group of suggestions describing everything from daily schedules to the knots uses in our robes. From how to hold your eating bowls to how to walk during breaks. How loud to speak to how to cut vegetables. They can be ancient like what kind of knots to make in ones robe or more modern like silencing your cell phone during sitting. Some are for monastic settings and some are for community centers. Some have real impact of the quality of practice, like how to hold the hands during zazen and some seem quite arbitrary like what foot to use crossing a threshold. They are an odd collection.
You can use the Forms to do quite a bit. For example:
It can make you feel like a good Zen student once you think you have mastered them.
It can make you feel like a crummy student if you fail, repeatedly.
It can make you feel like one of the cool people in the Sangha, as opposed to those who are clueless, inconsiderate, and lacking in commitment as demonstrated by their non adherence to the Form.
Success in the Forms can elevate you the Repository of the Treasured Heart of The Practice (OK, I made that up).
It can be your job. Or your role in the world.
We can be use Forms to communication our shortcoming: the gap between our intention (following the Forms) and what we are actually doing revels quite a bit about ourselves to our teachers and fellow students.
They help us be less self concerned: 'Get up with the wakeup bell' helps us be less concerned with what we want or don't want.
They make us feel part of a group: we are supporting the group by employing the Forms and the group is supporting us.
You and your community can embody beauty through the practice of the Forms. 'Beauty' is a perceived quality that resonate with your fundamental perfection.
Zen forms are what you want them to be. So, what do you want out of your Sangha, your practice and the Forms? Is Zen your job and practicing the Forms your occupation? Is it an identity for you? A way to define "we" and "them"? A litmus test to tell who is part of your sangha and who is not? Are they something to get better at, something step by step to master? Is it an opportunity for you to teach those who are ignorant? Do you want the Forms to bring some order to your chaotic personal life? An anchor of meaning in an uncaring universe? Do you want them to be a convenience so that we don't have to think about how to do something? Are the Forms something that need cherishing and protecting? A religious icon? Are they here to help create a religious institution? In a monastic community, are they a way to communicate with each other: A way to let everyone know, "I'm doing well today" or "Today I'm a bit off, I'm not doing well". Whew, have I just scratch the surface?
Is there a fundamental use of the forms? Some people think that forms are here to extend our awareness. But I think this is a superficial understanding. Sure if we spend long hours trying to count our breaths we will need some antidote to this navel gazing. But I reject the notion that some antidote is needed to the practice of shikantaza. Do we really need to be 'aware' 10 times a day or 10,000 times a day. Is that really what Zen practice is about? Hey! The world is full of suffering!!! Maybe I'm too practical or maybe I'm stupid, or maybe I'm both, but I do not think that Zen practice is about being more 'aware'.
I beg you to consider Zen using the Forms as something else.
In you heart of hearts, what do you want out of your Zen practice? It's worth considering, because once you know what you want then you can use the Forms to further your goal.
And out of respect for our founders, what did the Ancestors want out us? In their heart of hearts, in one word, what do they that want for you and me?
Oh no. I seems I've written myself into a dark personal corner, and I'm sure none of you want to be here with me...
Ok, lets start over and try to be more practical. As long as I'm alive, I'll be doing stuff. Once I'm dead I won't be doing anything. This insight is from the Zen teacher Norman Fisher. Pretty basic, but I think it's important. And the stuff I do involves moving. Living things are alway moving, even while appearing nearly still. Dead thing are still. Living things can look pretty still, but actually they are always moving and doing something. But lets look at how I do this something. For me, the next thing I do might be done out of habit, not at all considered, done while half awake and preoccupied with what I want or where I want to be. But it does not have to be this way. I do not want it to be this way for me or for you either.
Thank goodness we actually have a choice in what to do in the next moment. But to have an alternative to this habitual, preoccupied, half awake way of acting we must have some commitment to act in a different way. We have to care about how we do this thing. Zen Forms are commitments, nothing more or less. Because there are lots and lots of 'doing' in our life, we need lots and lots of commitments or Forms. But it's OK to start out with one or two.
Might Zen Forms have any features?
One feature is Zen is that there are no limits. None of the many aspects of Zen have limits. Is our sitting limited to standing or lying down? Or take the vows: is the vow to save all beings just limited to your friends? Or just to those you think deserved to be saved? Or just humans? Or just those living now? Or all beings in the 10 directions? What about you toothbrush? Can you save your toothbrush?
How about the precepts? Where are the limits? Take "Do Not Kill". 'Not killing' is not limited to Not Killing you neighbor, or animals, or plants. It's not even limited to not killing thoughts or desires or aversions.
So what is special about the forms? Why should we assume there are limits to the forms? If we save a little old lady from getting run over, or if we manage to not killer the mo fo who cut us off in traffic, can we says that we have mastered 'saving' and 'not killing'?
Are we ever done with them? Do we graduate? Do we get a sabbatical from 'not killing'. Is there annual leave, spare time, retire at 65? Of course not.
So why should there be any limits to "Walk quietly"? What is your commitment to "walking quietly". Does it mean "quiet enough so that when I walk in the zendo I don't wake up my betters?" Or is it limited to throwing our whole self into each moment of walking so as not disturb one molecule of air? Is walking quietly limited to walking or does "walking quietly" mean not disturbing even one molecule of air even with not waking? Once you can do that, can you go beyond walking quietly and not walking quietly? Have you ever seen an old Zen student wildly abandon a form? It is a bizarre shocking event. Is that freedom?
Another feature of Zen is that its practice is not a step by step process. It's to be done fully, by each of us,, without reserve in this present moment. Sure, when you just start out with "walking quietly" your walking will sound different than one who has devoted most of her life to "walking quietly". But that does not mean her practice is better than yours. In fact, she might be day dreaming while walking. You can train a monkey to walk quietly. Does the monkey have good practice? Of course not, he's a monkey! If you want to improve "walking quietly" you improve by clarifying your intention and practicing persistently. Getting better at "walking quietly" has nothing at all to do with walking quietly! Zen forms is not a commitment to do anything! There are no mistakes in the practice of the Forms!
Finally, I want to propose that the reason we make the commitment is to be free. Have you made a commitment to 'walk quietly' to walk quietly? Well, what do you want out of your practice? For me, the Forms is a commitment to find some space. Once space is created we then have the possibility to act in a way we choose.
So the Forms are about a commitment. And the Forms are without limits like everything else in Zen. A limitless commitment. A limitless commitment that we fully and continually throw ourselves into without concern for improvement in order to create some space were we can act according to our deepest intention.
Lets take it apart into it's pieces. First I adopt the Form "walking quietly" as my intention. What I notice very quickly is how oblivious I am regrading how much sound I make when I walk. I am unconscious when I walk: I use myself out of habit. Over time I start to notice the stimulus to walk. Then, sometimes, I can stop my self from acting on the stimulus. I stop. I remind myself about my commitment to walk quietly. I can then then proceed with my commitment to walk quietly, or do something else, like nap. But it does not stop there. One must be on continual lookout for the stimulus to walk. At any moment our universe might send us sensations that prompt a stimulus or desire to walk. It's trick like that.
The Zen student have the benefit of a whole lot to individual forms they can adopt. And they have shikantaza to loosen our grasp of habitual responses and nurture a framework for continuos limitless commitment. It's sad, however, that they have few tools to maintain a continuous commitment.
This is where the AT comes in. It can give the Zen student concrete tools to help maintain their commitment moment after moment. The AT can help stop the neurotic preoccupation with getting getting ahead of ourself. It is sad that the AT has only one form and have no community for support.
Zen Forms are prompts to inhibit and direct. If we practice the Forms then we can begin to stop and see the moment for what it actually is, and then act based on our fundamental intention instead of out of habit. Our Zen ancestors did not know about the Alexander technique. But they gave us the gift of the Zen Forms which shows they did have some understanding of the power of inhibition and direction.
I'm writing this to urge you, as a Zen student, to study both the real meaning of the Forms, and to consider studying the Alexander Technique.
I welcome your criticism, thank you very much.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
A Talk to My AT Training School
This is a talk that I just gave at my AT Training Course.
I want to talk about what the AT teacher can offer Zen students.
As a preface I want to be clear: I am not a Zen teacher, nor am I particularly well read. All I have is about 30 yrs of tepid experience in Zen practice. I have opinions instead of credentials.
Here are some reasons for the AT teacher to know something about Zen:
1. To help understand the Zen students questions: They may use words or concepts that are technical or foreign.
2. To help you market AT practice to Zen students.
3. To help the Zen students learn more about Zen practice.
4. To learn some concepts that can be used to teach the the AT.
5. To learn a bit about the beliefs that a Zen student might have.
I also want to suggest that Zen is something that the AT teachers can recommend to their students
First, background:
Buddha is said to have lived about 500BC. Zen is a sect of Buddhism. There are many other sects of Buddhism. . Buddhism started in India, but when it migrated to China where Zen was developed. From there, Zen spread throughout Asia and took on the flavors of each country. Most Zen today is here by way of Japan.
I can not give you even a brief introduction to Buddhism, I just want to mention three things: the four noble truths, the reliance on experience, and the fundamental nature of enlightenment.
I think of Buddha more as a doctor than a spiritual figure.
-4 Noble truths: 1. Life is suffering: but this is a poor translation. A better translation is that there is a gnawing sense of dissatisfaction with life. 2. There is a reason for this: attachment to transient things, inc the attachment to the notion of an abiding, separate self. 3. there is relief from suffering: that is the forsaking of cravings and aversions. It is perfectly reasonable to substitute forsaking ‘end-gaining’. Now this is not ending likes and dislikes;as long as we're human we will have desires and aversion - it’s the obsessiveness or attachment that is the problem) 4. There is a path to the cessation of suffering which in Zen is based on mindfulness.
-Next, Buddha was quite clear that we should not rely on what is written, what is tradition, what the wise tell us. We should rely instead on our direct experience with reality.
-Buddha's first teaching is that he along with everyone else is enlightened. Fundamentally there is nothing that needs to be added or changed. We do not realize this perfection because it is covered with conditioning. Hence, enlightenment, or the cessation of suffering, is not something extra to be gained. Zen is the most direct expression of this realization.
Zen is about setting aside cravings and aversions. Zen emphasizes meditation.
There are two forms of meditation in Zen. The first is Koan studies: continuously and intensively studying incomprehensible questions, such as “what is the sound of one hand clapping?”. This is not the dominant form of zen meditation so I won’t go into it.
Most of your Zen student on the west coast will be doing a practice called Shikantaza or ‘just sitting’. Strictly speaking it is not meditation. Meditation is fixing the mind's attention on some object. But in Shikantaza, trying to fix the mind on something is extra. This is the purest, simplest form of Buddhist practice: if you are enlightened already you just need to sit without adding anything extra.
Just sitting results in a blend of concentration and expansive awareness. It is taught: not flabby or tense.
‘Just sitting’ is not learning meditation - there is no improvement. How could you get better at just sitting? Shikantaza is appreciating the mind just as it is. Just sitting. Bare attention. It has been called “beginners mind”.
Going back to my original definition of Buddhism: This ‘just sitting’ is experienced based: direct experience of sitting. It is the forsaking of conditioning moment after moment. It is allowing the desires and aversions to fall away again and again. If you want to get better at it you will want to get better at creatively resolving desires and aversions. It is not about what you gain, it is about what you give up. Finally, if we are all enlightened just as we are there is no reason to actually “do” anything. So sitting is not based on doing, it is intention based. The intention is to just sit.
In ‘just sitting’ there is also a great emphasis on being upright, eyes open, preferably cross legged with the hands held in a very particular way. In Yoga it is known as the Full Lotus Posture. Parenthetically, the aim of yoga, I am told, is to be able to sit comfortably like this for long periods.
What does the AT teacher have to offer Zen students?:
1. help with sitting:
-You can help the student sit with less pain
-You can help the zen student develop a dialogue with the body: a new tool to creatively resolve cravings and aversions.
-Help understand the concept of non-doing.
-Help the students learn about the unreliability of sensory information.
2. help with bringing their Zen practice into everyday life
You can help the Zen student sit with less pain. As I said earlier, there is great emphasis placed on posture. And yes, Zen students do call it ‘posture’ and they emphasize “not moving” during sitting. Woefully, little attention is given to teaching how to physically sit. Initial instructions are given, and very infrequently teachers with do brief postural adjustments during periods of zazen. But basically how-to-sit is left up to each individual.
Instructions for shikantaza is based on the teachings of a 16th century zen master, Dogen, in his writing called the Shobogenzo. This brief writing is highly regarded and frequently used as a talking point in lectures. Students often recite it. It is very interesting that he talks quite a lot about posture in this writing, yet the portion regarding the posture is NEVER discussed in talks.
So there is minimal instructions on how to sit, yet the students are expected to take a cross legged position - which is distinctly foreign to chair accustomed Americans - and not move for 30 minutes or longer. That hurts. So sit in pain is common.
The AT teacher can help the Zen Student sit more comfortably in the same way musicians and surgeons are helped. All three hold static, non neutral postures which produce pain and disability as the result of inefficient patterns of use.
As I mentioned, Zen takes the flavor of its host country. Japanese zen is extremely physical and seems to us brutal. American Zen students - perhaps because they are generally white, middle class, and colored with feminist sensibilities - relate to sitting as a mental or emotional practice.
Although efforts were made to import the Japanese physical approach to sitting it was abandoned as Zen became more feminized and inclusive. Now, in American Zen we are left with the occasional admonition to: “Sit upright!” “Correct your posture!” “Tuck in your chin!” Unfortunately, this inevitably creates even more tension, bad habits and no improvement in use. There is now a great void in American Zen: how do we physically sit zazen?
Zen Student has three spheres to in which to investigate sitting:
-Mind approach: using some amount of effort to bring the attention back
-Emotional approach: which might include fully experiencing the emotions surrounding the distraction.
-Physical approach: AT is the path to correct sitting. AT is the Yoga of Zen. The AT is How to Physically Sit. Now, along with creatively engaging the mind and emotional spheres the zen student now has a whole new arena to play in. The AT is a tool to creatively resolve clinging and aversions. The AT is a huge addition to the East's premier contribution to humanity.
NON DOING: I mentioned earlier the Buddha said that we are all already enlightened and that we just have to set aside the cravings and aversions to see it. Hence, if we stop doing the wrong thing then the right thing will do itself: the enlightened mind will come forward and express itself. There are very few activities that are explicitly based on non-doing, Zen and the AT are the only two I know of. It takes some maturity for the Zen student to understand sitting as non-doing. Americans DO things and non-doing is a foreign concept. And pain while sitting is a big stimulus to do something. Unfortunately, in my opinion, Zen teacher coddle their students: Often students are given ‘training wheels’. Instead of supporting the practice of just sitting, teacher suggest the students bring your attention back to their breathing 0r even suggest counting the exhalations. But the AT teacher can teach them about non-doing and show them the benefits: Alexander used the terms ‘wishing’ and ‘letting’ and the Zen students should be very interested in these terms. You can teach them both AT and Zen at the same time.
Unreliable sensory appreciation. When sitting for long hours Zen students encounter much sensory input and we interpret it and create meaning based on these sensations. If we do not questioning our interpretations and instead act on these interpretations we can develop bad habits quite quickly. This is actually what brought me to the AT. I would guess Zen student would be more open to hearing about unreliable sensory information than most people.
As I said, being upright is highly valued. But if Zen students can not base attempts to sit upright on sensory information, what can guide us to sit upright? Personally I found this really scary to face. You can save them by teaching the students about ‘direction’. The Zen student knows all about inhibition. In fact, sitting is nothing but pure inhibition of end-gaining. But they have have not heard of the use direction. It is very sad, but you can help.
Bringing Zen practice to everyday life.
I’ve talked about Zen as if it is all about sitting. However Buddhism changes at if enters every country. The US is changing zen is several ways. I want to talk about the movement called “engaged buddhism”.
The East's great contribution is personal or spiritual liberation. The East has shown how the individual can find relief from suffering. But the East lacks a concept that social and political structures can be changed. The West, on the other hand, since ancient Greek time, is characterized by change to social and political structures. However, because we are not good at personal transformation, our new leaders and structures are just as mired in greed, hate, and delusion as the old ones. So it is the wish of engaged Buddhists to combine their efforts to change social and political structures, with their enlightened awareness and compassion that naturally springs forth from their practice.
As opposed to many Buddhists, Zen Buddhist have a unique perspective. There is an immediacy to Zen practice. It is a simple direct focus on what one is doing in this present moment. The Zen student is interested in what she is doing right now to make the world a better place. Most older Zen students know that a strong sitting practice is ultimately not important if one continues to react in habitual ways: small minded, self centered, selfish, impulsive, prejudicial, habitual, shortened, contracted, egotistical. When practitioners leave their supportive community and retreats they are often struck by how their responses to stimuli are not in accord with their fundamental intention.
The tools Zen students have to act on their fundamental intention outside the meditation hall are quite limited. Students might be told to “Think of the one who is not busy”. Or they will adopt a slow deliberate pace of activity. Or they might try to adopt a simpler lifestyle to avoid derailing stimuli. Or do even more meditation.
However, the lack of tools that are given to Zen Students is really a great shortcoming in Zen, especially given the emphasis that American Zen has placed on social activism. In essence, they have limited tools to interrupt the manifestation of “small mind”.
Preempting the startle reflex by persistently allowing the neck be free prevents the distraction that are the bane of the zen students daily life. The tools you can give them, inhibition and direction, are a priceless jewel for the Zen student who hopes to bring their practice to their daily life.
The AT teacher also open up another front on inhibition. Zen student are very in-tune with the quality of their mind. Once a Zen student is done with meditation she is left with a quieter, more attentive mind. When she becomes distracted she will note the discordance between how a quiet expansive mind feels and her increasing contracted agitated mind, and that discord will prompt her to return to mindfulness.
In contrast, after a lesson an AT student will have have an overall body perception of length, width, and poise. Later, she will be sensitive to the physical discordance between how she feels after a lesson and how she feels going into a stressful situation. So she will stop, inhibit end gaining, and employ direction as she goes forward. If we separate the self into physical and mental, the Zen student approaches a practice with her mind and the AT student approaches practice with her body. They are complementary.
Because they are complementary techniques, I think that the AT teacher can recommend Zen practice to some students.
In conclusion, the AT teacher can offer quite a bit to the zen student. The AT teacher:
- can show them how to sit with less physical pain.
- can give the zen student a new tool to creatively resolve cravings and aversions
- can help the Zen student understand the nature and power of non-doing.
- and can help her come to a realization of unreliable sensory appreciation.
AND in addition to help with sitting, the AT teacher can show the zen student how to inhibit the manifestation of a contracted, habit driven mind. The AT can help them develop a kinesthetic sense when they are beginning to stray from their fundamental intention and the tools to help them remain anchored in an appreciation of the present moment.
Thank you for listening to me.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Transitions
OK, quiz time. If you are reading this you are likely familiar with the Zen meditation "Just Sitting" or shikantaza. Various instruction on how to do this have been written, but the most famous (according to me) is the Fukanzazengi by Zen Master Dogen. This is his instructions on how to do shikantaza. He talks mostly about correct understanding, very briefly about what to do with the mind and some detailed instructions about how to physically do shikantaza. This essay is commonly discussed in contemporary teachings. There is one detail, one action, that he emphasizes using seven adverbs. He tells us how to do it, and in case there is any confusion, turns around and tells us how not to do it. Here is the quiz question: what instruction is this? And why have you never hear any comments on the passage?
"When you arise from sitting, move slowly and quietly, calmly and deliberately. Do not rise suddenly or abruptly. In surveying the past, we find that transcendence of both unenlightenment and enlightenment, and dying while either sitting or standing, have all depended entirely on the strength (of zazen)."
I wish I were an expert in ancient Japanese and/or a zen teacher, because then I could have something worthwhile to say about this passage. Well, sorry that's not going to stop me. I'll try to keep it simple.
Transitions are important.
For your Average Joe Zen Student (for whom I can speak confidently), who is sitting a long period of zazen, the sound of the bell to end zazen generates a predictable series of events: a thought such as "Oh, it's about fucking time!" Then stretching to get the wrinkles out. Then waiting for the slowpokes to get up so we can finally do some walking or get some coffee. For your Average Joe, "when you arise from sitting" is a time to say "whew! Glad that over!".
I really want to understand what Dogen is saying. Is he saying that one acquires some "strength" in zazen? Is he hoping we do not to fritter it away when getting up? What is it to "deliberately" arise from sitting? Should we think about getting up?
I'll say that for the AT student every moment there is the possibility of choice. If things are going well, then every moment there is a choice: am I going to respond to the stimulus to do something, or am I not? If I neglect the opportunity of choice then I respond in a way that is primitive, unconscious, impulsive, ill considered, habit driven, small minded, selfish. If I recognize a choice then I have at least some hope of responding with consideration. I'll call that freedom.
So what is a transition? Are transitions a trap? Are transitions an opportunity? Or are they an illusion? Is every moment a transition?
I'll bet my AT teacher would suggest that when I hear the end of zazen bell I do nothing. Really do it. Say "No!". Stop until the end-gaining resolves and I have an opportunity to consciously direct my use.
I've heard beginner taught "when the bell is struck we all bow together". To see the whole group bowing together meets someones expectations of good aesthetics: 'Oh look! We have finally squashed our individuality, defeated our selfish ego!' But have we defeated our ego, or are we half asleep mindless sheep? Have we really stopped, considered and then chosen to do this bow at this time - to act in time with other to create harmonious living - or are we just going through the paces?
Maybe I'm not a good zen student. I'd much rather be free from habits. Good comes from recognizing that one has stopped, considered the alternatives, and then choosing to be good. Simply trying to act like everyone else is really scary, it's the heart of fascism and I'll bet it kept FM Alexander up at night.
I spent 40 minutes sitting, trying not to follow after habits, to leave all the stimuli alone, to just sit. And when the bell rings and I respond like a Pavlov Dog. Oh, I feel like an animal. Like a common beast with real nice robes. It's very depressing. And I do that ALL THE TIME. It drives me nuts. It's humiliating.
The inhibitory quality of zazen must be brought into other affairs, and to that we have to bring deliberation to transitions. I'm going to start by inhibiting and directing when I arise from sitting. It's an important transition.
Almost as important as this transition.
"When you arise from sitting, move slowly and quietly, calmly and deliberately. Do not rise suddenly or abruptly. In surveying the past, we find that transcendence of both unenlightenment and enlightenment, and dying while either sitting or standing, have all depended entirely on the strength (of zazen)."
I wish I were an expert in ancient Japanese and/or a zen teacher, because then I could have something worthwhile to say about this passage. Well, sorry that's not going to stop me. I'll try to keep it simple.
Transitions are important.
For your Average Joe Zen Student (for whom I can speak confidently), who is sitting a long period of zazen, the sound of the bell to end zazen generates a predictable series of events: a thought such as "Oh, it's about fucking time!" Then stretching to get the wrinkles out. Then waiting for the slowpokes to get up so we can finally do some walking or get some coffee. For your Average Joe, "when you arise from sitting" is a time to say "whew! Glad that over!".
I really want to understand what Dogen is saying. Is he saying that one acquires some "strength" in zazen? Is he hoping we do not to fritter it away when getting up? What is it to "deliberately" arise from sitting? Should we think about getting up?
I'll say that for the AT student every moment there is the possibility of choice. If things are going well, then every moment there is a choice: am I going to respond to the stimulus to do something, or am I not? If I neglect the opportunity of choice then I respond in a way that is primitive, unconscious, impulsive, ill considered, habit driven, small minded, selfish. If I recognize a choice then I have at least some hope of responding with consideration. I'll call that freedom.
So what is a transition? Are transitions a trap? Are transitions an opportunity? Or are they an illusion? Is every moment a transition?
I'll bet my AT teacher would suggest that when I hear the end of zazen bell I do nothing. Really do it. Say "No!". Stop until the end-gaining resolves and I have an opportunity to consciously direct my use.
I've heard beginner taught "when the bell is struck we all bow together". To see the whole group bowing together meets someones expectations of good aesthetics: 'Oh look! We have finally squashed our individuality, defeated our selfish ego!' But have we defeated our ego, or are we half asleep mindless sheep? Have we really stopped, considered and then chosen to do this bow at this time - to act in time with other to create harmonious living - or are we just going through the paces?
Maybe I'm not a good zen student. I'd much rather be free from habits. Good comes from recognizing that one has stopped, considered the alternatives, and then choosing to be good. Simply trying to act like everyone else is really scary, it's the heart of fascism and I'll bet it kept FM Alexander up at night.
I spent 40 minutes sitting, trying not to follow after habits, to leave all the stimuli alone, to just sit. And when the bell rings and I respond like a Pavlov Dog. Oh, I feel like an animal. Like a common beast with real nice robes. It's very depressing. And I do that ALL THE TIME. It drives me nuts. It's humiliating.
The inhibitory quality of zazen must be brought into other affairs, and to that we have to bring deliberation to transitions. I'm going to start by inhibiting and directing when I arise from sitting. It's an important transition.
Almost as important as this transition.
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